Feelings and Thoughts

This past week was rough with my blood sugar, and I still haven't heard back from the doctor if I will be put on insulin for my gestational diabetes. But the dietician already had me practice using insulin and giving myself a shot. It wasn't as scary as I thought it would be, but I am a little nervous. At work we are on mandatory 10 hours of overtime, and if anyone knows me I work a lot of hours, so when the doctor pulled me off overtime and put a restriction I can only work 40 hours per week. It was a little weird to work only 40 hours.
We told Kadence this past week about that baby, so she knows the baby is sick. She cried and I cried with her. She told me she wants to be a BIG sister so bad, and I told her...she will always be a big sister! Kadence has been a little more clingy to me than normal, but that is to be expected. The one thing she asked me was if she will still get to hold her baby sister? I told her of course you can hold your baby sister when she is born. That broke my heart...when it comes to Kadence I have a hard time keeping myself from breaking down. I will be making sure Kadence is okay once the baby is born. She is my entire world.
The weather this week wasn't so kind to my body...now my hands, legs, ankles and feet are swelling up. The good thing was I made it to 32 weeks until my wedding ring won't fit my finger anymore :) Only 8 more weeks to go 43 more working days. I am anxiously awaiting everything, but at the same time worried about the future and what is going to happen. I thank all of my friends and family again for your support!! I could not do this without you:) Especially to my husband...I LOVE YOU!!!
Something positive this week :)...my husband let me buy a ticket to go on The New Kids Cruise next May!! I am so excited!!! The cruise sold out yesterday when it went on sale, and my friend and I were able to get on the boat!!! It is giving me something exciting and positive to look forward to! I am excited to meet so many of my friends I have met on twitter on the cruise! Of course excited to see all of NKOTB on a boat! I am a Donnie Wahlberg girl after all these years with Jonathan Knight tendencies! LOL!!! They make me feel like a teenager all over again...whenever I see them in concert, since their reunion tour, I feel like I am that teenage girl who doesn't have a responsibility in the world...until the concert is over....then I can go back to the real world.